I often find myself lost in thought about the future. I used to think this was a new habit but I came to realize it’s something I’ve done my whole life. I remember daydreaming about being in med school. It seemed so farfetched back as a teenager.
These days, I daydream during a slow round or on my daily commute to Irbid. It really is overwhelming that in just a few months I will be held responsible for every word I say, every drug I prescribe and every action the people around me may perceive as “healthy” just because of a piece of paper I will hold. This piece of paper that can either be license to kill or a license to help.
I can’t believe that after all this hard work, the dream is only a few months away.
I just read a tweet by someone I really respect stating that after 19 years of doing what he’s been doing, he still doesn’t know if it was the right choice. And this got me daydreaming about something that I wanted to share: what really is the right choice? How do I know that this is the kind of responsibility I want to carry?
For me, it is the choice that doesn’t make you wonder ‘what if?’ every second of every day. It’s the choice that has you waking up with a smile on your face every single morning. In life, there are good days and there are bad. I think this is a sentence that I repeat in every single one of my blog posts. It is insane how much social media has influenced our perception of other people’s lives; we only see the “good”. We see the parties, the happy days at university, and the fun meals. We don’t see the sick days, we don’t see the cranky moods, and we most definitely do not see the countless hours spent working for accomplishing a dream.
My point is, look at the bigger picture. Stop thinking ‘what if?’. And get lost living your dreams. However, if you find yourself unable to remove this urge of ‘what if?’ – maybe it’s time to get lost doing something else.